I MISS MYSELF, REAL BLOGGING, ETC AND LTE CHURVA!

I miss the adrenaline rush! . When I started blogging a few years ago, my creative juices were pouring out like ripe lemon. . As in doing anything new for the first time - like reading a book that excites you, or having a new bf, etc - - - blogging wuzzz the "IT" thing! . I could not get myself off the computer! . But the interest wanes at time went by ... and you find it a bit of a challenge to keep the fire in your posts going. . Obviously, most of the blogs that we love before are now goneeee or what? . My posts are also becoming very uninterestingly stale, generic, and sometimes just echoing those of others ... not reflective of my inner thoughts, real experiences etc. . Why? . It is supposed to be the place where I could be the most honest to myself. Some sort of a diary - that I could re-read and return to in the future .... But time and everything in between somehow lead you astray from what blogging is supposed to be - I mean, in your personal reasons! . I found blogging to be enervating. . It keeps me sane and insane at the same time. . It has became the mirror and memory keeper of things I have gone through - like becoming a drag queen, for instance. I started it while blogging and blogging has even fueled me to do more drag. How can one obssession fuel another one, like this? . Years and years from now, I would sit down and read through all my posts - and surely I would find things assuming, pretentious, yukk, creepy and downright corny! But some of it would be real me! . Too much of it becomes an obssession, mirroring my insecure self. . On the other hand, blogging allows you to connect with bloggers of the same feather - kindred spirits, of that kind .... with similar conditions, sickness, obssession, etc. Friendship may blossom and come to a fruition... But as with all things - nothing lasts forever! . And so with friends that you met through blogging.... I wonder where they are now? Last one to go is the Las Tres Estrellas? Has it become a private blog now? Does anyone know? Or did I miss something important? . Advise me ....