HAPPY KA NA???

nakalimutan ko na ang maging happy? kailan nga ba ako talagang masaya??? super tagal na. parang song ng "those were the days my friends..." very melancholic!! hayyy... super saya ko noong nasa pinas pa ako ... siguro highschool days... when pag gising mo sa umagang kay ganda super excited ka na sa nga activities for the day ... kahit going to school lang !!! parang ang sayasaya talaga ... and then kahit na sa college and then for a few years na nagwork ako ... despite the financial problems na kung titingnan no ngayon ay so minute ... overall rating ko on the happiness scale is 9 out of ten hahaha!! kasi andun ang daily excitement... never akong nabored and never ko knowing ang meaning nito until now. i was sorrounded by my family, friends and people that are totally connected to your being, your personality and your joys and happiness. i think the opposite of happiness is plain boredom!!! ALIENATION ... when you are living and working overseas or away from home.... especially when you are not closely connected to your people and your culture.... you find ways and all means to be connected ... but nothing compares to the feeling when you are totally immersed and located where your heart and home is :)) akala ko nuon pag mag aabroad ka ... maging super saya ka forever!! super gagah pala ako .. pweding iwanan lahat ng napag umpisahan ko at pinagpaguran for how many years bumalik lang sa inang bayan ... magandang idea sha kaya lang nakapag move on na ako ng milya milya ... baka ang babalikan ko ay isang panaginip lang at mawala na naman ako sa paghahanap ... but this is exciting!!! u cannot have the best of both worlds in your red fingertips ... maybe making the best of what u've got and just keep on moving and exploring is the answer and then u still have beatiful and happy memories you can always visit time and again ... i think i have been watching too much filipino melodrama lately :)