THE CRYING GAME

As far as i can remember

the first time i saw this film

i decided to become a drag queen

for all its crying worth!

I just love the beautiful hand movements, the mystery and depth of it all ...

and the social relevance if ever there is/was!

(credits to Jaye Davidson, Boy George and Neil Jordan for coming up with this TS/drag scene performance)

I know all there is to know about the crying game

I've had my share of the crying game

First there are kisses (kisses),

Then there are sighs

And then before you know where you are

You're sayin' goodbye

One day soon I'm gonna tell the moon

About the crying game

And if he knows, maybe he'll explain

Why there are heartaches (heartaches),

why there are tears

And what to do to stop feeling blue when love disappears

First there are kisses (kisses),

then there are sighs

And then before you know where you are

You're sayin' goodbye

Don't want no more of the crying game

Don't want no more of the crying game

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I BROKE MY BACK ...

( I think this is what I need this weekend!) Mag to-two months na ever since we started preparing our house for sale. And I am already passed the end of my ropes. I think, I have writing about Saudi, to escape the chaos I have been in at the moment - but now I need to go back to reality. . I think, if ever there are tests to marriages and partnerships, renovating an old house is one of the fast breaker. It is just sooo unfabulous, not funny at all! . N (my long time partner, husband, companion, etc), kasi has been obssessed trying to perfect things. He can't stop doing things even in the middle of the night. As a lighting consultant - he has experience in renovation and house building, so he can do minor and some major repairs. . Whereas, me being the lady of the house, opts to do the conceptualization, finalizing and decorating side of things - which I do very well naturally. . But I hate the dust, heavy objects, dirt, etc ... and though I have been doing it once in a little while in my life, I now DETEST doing manual carpentry work, etc., and promised myself not to be in this stage ever again. . My problem kasi, is that I keep on suggesting things to be done - to have that fresh new look that we want in an old house. This ended up having me and him still doing all the things still - except for the really really hard jobs like fencing and cementing which we need to contract. It is too hard and expensive finding people to do things for you, unlike in pinas - where you can just call the tambays around the block. Here hard laborers are hard to find and you pay top dollar once you find them. . So last Sunday, as with all the moving and carrying things around the house, we have to carry this heavy chinese furniture (actually an old 18th century chicken house) with ornate carvings, etc - from the room on the second floor down to the open entertainment area at the back of the house. Down the two level stairways - I was staggering with the weight, afraid of falling down the stairways with the heavy object. There, I had a brokeback incident, which made me paralyzed the whole night. . Monday morning, I went and see a chiro and with his able hands, the pain subsided and I think he has put back whatever has been misplaced. Yesterday, I went to have my x-ray and will back to the chiro again tomorrow. . The other night, N was again sanding the walls and these killer dust spread with the air all over the house like snow. I was totally devastated - and could not stop from howling and grating my teeth. But there is absolutely nothing I could do but clean up the mess. . With all these things happening, we are still working at home every night we come back from work. We are hoping to beat our deadline and place our house on ads by October - spring! . Hope by then, my life comes back to normal and I will be able to smile and face the world again (Ching!).

IN MY LIFE (CHING!)

Feel ko tuloy, I wanna have a pinoy BF na!

WHERE'S TJE PARTEE ???

i Want to FreE my sOul !

i wanNNa lose Cuntrole ...

GEOGRAPHY OF BLISS

I have just finished reading "The Geography of Bliss" by Eric Weiner and I totally enjoyed it. Thanks to sister of faith - Kawadjan - who introduced this in her blog. Mwah! One main reason that keeps me blogging (or blog hopping) is that I get updated with some of the best stuff out there that other bloggers had already discovered. My easy and lazy way of keeping up with the Joneses! I love this book. He travelled around the world to find the happiest places or people and here's what he found out: "Money matters, but less than we think and not in the way that we think" "Family is important." "So are Friends." "Envy is Toxic." "So is Excessive Thinking." "Beaches are optional." "Trust is Not." "Neither is Gratitude." But these things we already KNOW.

The author just confirmed and analyzed these factors in his journey. He forgot to visit the Philippines (though there were several mentions about pinoys working in Qatar) - but I think the level of happiness in the Philippines would be high despite corruption, poverty and chaos. Just watch Waa-Waa-Wee for instance. What do you think?

I am living in Australia for ten years now. But over the years, I am not THAT that happy despite the following facts suggest.

Australia Happiness level: 7.7 Population: 21,260,000 GDP per capita: $34,359 Happy fact: In 2006, a pair of economists ranked Australia second, after Iceland, in a new kind of happiness ranking. Using the U.N. Human Development Index, which measures life expectancy, education and GDP, the researchers found that Australians were happier than citizens of other nations even though they tended to work long hours and enjoyed less job security.

Maybe because I live in colder zone and I am definitely a summer person. Reason enough to head off to Quensland! But even then, places are just places - The happiest place on earth is where your heart is - where you want to die - and that is HOME! So for the Filipinos abroad - there is always that nagging, constant longing (to go home) that breaks our hearts now and then. If only we have that CHOICE - and can bloody afford it!

I FEEL ....

sooo UGLY!

these days!

but i don't care :)

A TIME TO LET GO ...

definitely

a time to let go

of things

that we've collected

over the years!

renovating a house

and planning to move

to another one

makes you choose only

the things that you want

to keep

and throw all the

others into the bin

those that you can't sell or give away

in my next house

i want to be

purely minimalistic!

(a note for myself!

that is!)